(PISCES )Feb. 19-March 20) Here are a few of the fine developments I expect you will have enjoyed by the end of July: growing pains that feel pretty damn good; the dissolution of wishy-washy wishes that had been keeping you distracted from your burning desires; a vivid vision of what you want to be when you grow up; licing proof that you're not just an armchair adventurer; the friendliest lust ever; a new plaything; and insight into why fanaticism can be very useful in moderation.
Today is the 17th of July. I have two weeks. I've wasted away half the summer doing nothing, and the better part of the year treading water. The push to change my life starts now. If getting started is the most difficult part, and it has proven quite difficult for me so far, then I suspect that these next two weeks are going to be crucial. But none of the positive outcomes imagined in that horoscope will be realized without some initiative to find that on my part. To that end, I've identified are jogged down (in pencil on the refrigerator) a handful of areas in my life that need particular emphasis :
- Cleanliness
- My living conditions are atrocious. And I've done a poor job maintaining personal hygiene.
- Healthiness
- I've gotten little exercise and I've eaten poorly of late. I often am lethargic and feel as if I have no energy even after sleeping 12 hours a day.
- Creativity
- I haven't written much lately nor done anything else in a creative fashion.
- Goals
- I've rarely in my life set any goals, and have never made concerted efforts to accomplish anything I "set my mind" to. The first step in any plan is to make a fucking plan, and I've been stuck at that stage for years.
- Adventurous
- Like the horoscope said. I can't just be an "armchair adventurer". I need to push myself to go beyond my comfort zone.
- Ethical/Spiritual
- This element is the one that I believe can make all the other ones possible. It's an absolute must for my life at this point. I could remain a horrendous slob the rest of my days and still succeed. But I'm pretty sure I can do nothing more than I've done in my life without some major tinkering in this department.
- Responsible
- I need to find work and then go to work and such. That I will do.
So it is 7:00 pm on July 17th. I have managed to do a couple loads of dishes (no easy feat, they'd been crusting up and molding for months), got a load of laundry in the wash, threw some garbage away and move the old entertainment center into the garage. It's a start. It's something. It's not much, but I am confident that it will lead to more accomplishments before the night is over : like having the entire kitchen and living room cleaned, starting work on my bedroom, and getting ready to job hunt in the morning.
Well, blog, I hope I speak with you soon and have many good things to report, until next time!
